For Serious, and Breaking the 200 mark - again

Omg, you guys. I was just going through some old "drafts" that are still hanging out in my little bloggy dashboard area thing... I still have so far to go. In one draft I was talking about how I was eating upwards of 10 servings of fruit and veggies a day! A DAY!! And exercising consistently 3 days a week, but most weeks 5 days. UUUUGGGHHHH!! *stabstabstab*

Why can't I get with it?!

I am lucky if I get 3 servings of fruit and veggies a day now. My saturated fat intake is a little out of control. My sugar intake is still completely out of control. And I have SO MANY days where I say to myself, "I'm not for-real hungry, but I'm bored, and I'm bored-hungry for ALL THE FATTENING, PROCESSED, DELICIOUS THINGS!!"... and then sometimes I proceed to just, well, eat them.

I had been maintaining at right around 200lbs for the last month, but I stepped on my scale Saturday morning to see something glorious... "198.8"!!!!!!

I am only a pound away from my official pre-baby weight!

So in March, as some of you may know, I joined MyFitnessPal. My weight at the time was 209, so that's what I put into my profile information. My mom asked me yesterday at the pool how much weight I had lost because, she said, "You look great!". So I said, "Oh, like 10 lbs I guess.." and then I said, "Well, no, I guess more than that because on my scale I was 216lbs on January 1st." and she said, "So, that's more like 20 lbs!!" and I realized, why, YES. YES IT IS. So I decided to update my MyFitnessPal today to reflect my starting weight from January 1, instead of my "I just started using MyFitnessPal" starting weight. It feels pretty damn good to log-in there and see "You've lost 17lbs!" at that sidebar.

I'm not doing as well on my eating and exercise as I was back in the beginning of 2011 and end of 2010. I'll get there. I should probably sit down and read back through some of my entries to see if I can relocate that motivation and drive. Really my only excuse right now is that having two kids is hard and one of them being an infant is exhausting. The last thing I want to do after dinner is trek my way over to the gym for a strength routine. I just want to sit on my couch, eat Dairy Queen, and watch television.

At the beginning of this year I had a goal I wanted to reach by my friend Andrea's wedding... well, I had almost 10 months to get there at the beginning of the year... now I have not-quite-four. But for some reason I keep telling myself, "You have plenty of time." Um, no. Especially at the rate I lose weight. Let's be honest here. If I work SUPER HARD and never drink and eat only clean, I could maybe MAYbe lose 5lbs/month, putting me around my halfway goal of 185. *sigh*

First things first, find the damn motivation. Where are you, motivation, where are you?!?!

Here's a screenshot of my net calories for the last month: