Mine recently has been telling me it's okay to put a bunch of CRAP into my body - whether that be food, drink, or inhalants (ie: smoking).
Sunday night I was really craving some chinese food - now I did a somewhat honorable thing for myself and got shrimp with lots of veggies (even though it was in a brown sauce that probably had a lot of sugar in it) and requested brown rice instead of white or fried. Plus I got some egg drop soup which is actually one of the things good old JW recommends over anything else if you choose to eat Asian cuisine. So, it started off slowly with the choice of Chinese.. then one day this week I pretty much completely skipped a meal which is a BIG NO-NO, then Weds night I smoked - A LOT, and last night not only did I skip dinner but I ordered MOZZARELLA sticks at the bar and proceeded to drink more beer than I ever need AND smoke on top of that.
Needless to say, I felt like shit this morning. So what did I do today? Well I started out pretty good -- I had my usual oatmeal for breakfast and I decided to make a fruit shake for breakfast as well. *thumbs up*
...then I had a donut at work.
...and then I had a spicey chicken combo from Wendy's for lunch... almost the worst thing on the menu. I would have been better off getting the cheeseburger single combo... or if I really needed to do the spicey chicken there was no reason I couldn't have opted for a side salad instead of fries, but did I? No.
Now I'm feeling really sick to my stomach. Duh, gee, I wonder why?! My body is totally rejecting all this junk food/sugar. I'm trying really hard not to start that negative inner-monologue. It's okay to splurge every now and then. Plus starting next week I'll be allowed my cheat meals on the weekends so it's okay to eat this kind of stuff in moderation.. but with the way I feel right now I'm not sure that I really want to lol! Maybe that's the point... eh?
stats for 10/7:
- total calories: 1702 - including beers and mozz sticks... but remember I didn't eat any real dinner.
- calories burned: 380 - did a 30 min JW workout today! MAN! That shit kicked my butt!! I loved every minute of it. :)
- cigarettes: probably 9 or 10, I wasn't really counting
- 1am bedtime - SO BAD
- $10 spent ($11 left for the week)
I totally feel you on this post! It seems like if I give myself an inch (aka - a little splurge), I take 10,000 calories! haha. I've found that the worst thing I can do is dwell on it and make myself feel guilty. Once that guilt sets in, I start to feel like I screwed up so much that I can't fix it, so I might as well just give up all together. The times when I accept that I messed up a little, but move on and get over it, I do much better at getting back on track.
ReplyDeleteStay strong and keep at it! :)