Contrasting feelings

Yesterday I had this really upbeat, happy post - all about how I'm losing pounds and inches and feeling good about myself - and then I realize today I've been kind of depressed all week... manic much? I feel really good about my healthy eating and the workouts I'm (slowly) incorporating into my daily life.. but on a lot of other levels I've been feeling pretty down. Doesn't that seem weird? I feel like that's kind of weird... oh well.

Stats for 10/6:

• total calories: 2000 - yup, I hit my limit. It was the beers at the end of the night.
• calories burned: 0 - no workout, took a nap instead.. sooo bad. I felt a little down on myself for that. 
• cigarettes: 9 - I broke!! And I felt like crap this morning for it... it's a slow process but I'm getting there. What has really not been helping me is all the outside pressure from my friends to "just quit". The more pressure I feel to get it done the less I want to do it. I'm ornery like that. Obstinate even.
• 12:30am bedtime - another thumbs down.
• $14 spent on smokes and a case of beer. ($21 left for the week)

I need to be better about my bedtimes. Seriously. I need to just make the change, just make it happen. Even for the weekends. As someone's mother used to say I'm sure, "Nothing good ever happens after 2am."  This is a true fact. I have many stories that prove this theory.