Let me just get caught up on the last couple days' worth of eating first...
Tues. 3/1:
- breakfast: organic granola w/ 2% milk (becoming the usual)
- am snacks: banana and raw almonds, 2 mini cinnamon rolls (THANKS MAMA TROTT.. ugh)
- lunch: lean cuisine shrimp scampi w/ a big salad (usual fixin's and dressing)
- pm snacks: wheat thins, 8oz of organic chocolate milk (post-workout), 1/2 cup of frozen yogurt
- dinner: Stove Top chicken bake dish
- other: lots and lots of wine...
Weds. 3/2:
- breakfast: bacon, egg, and cheese biscuit w/ orange juice... from McDonalds... I'll explain this disaster in a moment.
- am snacks: banana w/ raw almonds
- lunch: tuna bullet from quizno's with baked lays - honestly, pretty much the healthiest option there but it made me SUPER sick to my stomach
- pm snacks: wheat thins
- dinner: lean cuisine shanghai shrimp
Okay, so Tuesday night I went over to a friends house to visit - we hadn't hung out in a LONG time and there was lots to talk about... and without realizing it I may have drank close to a bottle of wine... and I was... wrecked. I mean, seriously. Plus I did a LOT of drunken facebooking and then couldn't remember why I had about 1,000 notifications the next mornings... oh, yeah, 'cause I commented on EVERYTHING at 1am in a drunken stupor...
Work was NO FUN yesterday. I occasionally drink during the week - a glass of wine here, a beer or two there... most of my drinking usually happens on Friday or Saturday night, however, because really nobody likes being anywhere close to hungover at work.. this was so bad, you guys. I'm pretty sure I may have actually still been a little tipsy at 8am yesterday morning... but you know what? I was super freaking productive even with the constant self-loathing inner-monologue happening about how I'm a totally worthless wino and had I not had so much I could have gotten out of bed early to help James for his "Wacky Wednesday" outfit for daycare.. not that he really would have let me help him anyway.. but yeah... it was pretty awful. I feel totally embarrassed, guilty, and pretty much just hate everything about myself right now.
I haven't done anything like that in a really long time.. like.. since before I was married. I'm going to just go out on a limb here and say this probably had something to do with the fact that I've felt so depressed the last couple of weeks - it doesn't make it healthy. But it was certainly a wake-up call on a lot of different levels.
Let the detox begin.
Positive things about this week:
- 2 days 0 cigarettes
- did weights Monday (I already posted about that I think), and 45 mins of cardio Tuesday. Thanks to Quizno's I was too sick my stomach after work yesterday to even contemplate exercise.. but I packed my gym bag this morning and plan on doing that after work.
- epic fail on Tuesday's bedtime - but last night lights out by 11pm.
- $10 spent between breakfast and lunch yesterday
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