Week 5 - Days 3 and 4

I've been a loaf about posting regularly, I know. And I know I've said this already... but we're in busy season at work and sometimes when work is over the last thing I want to do is sit on the computer and write out a post.

Day 3:

• total calories/points: 1'526 / 30
• I did NOT make to the gym... I feel like I did post about this...or I started to... maybe? I started feeling really run-down in the afternoon at work. I think perhaps Strep took more out of me than I realized. I got home and put my jammies on. I decided better to get all-the-way better than to go to the gym, feel like I need to push myself, and then feel completely and totally sick all over again.
• 0 cigarettes - the end of yesterday was incredibly stressful for me and I wanted to smoke SO BAD.. but I didn't. And I'm really proud of that. 10 days now. 
• 9:30pm bedtime. You read that right. I was really really run-down...
• $3 spent on lunch. God bless bean burritos and their cheapiness. 

Day 4:

• total calories/points: 1'800 / 37 - I've had an Eating Day today. I've been really really hungry all day. Even being super busy at work could not effectively distract me from my stomach screaming at me to feed it. The worst part? I felt really guilty for not working out...
• no workout... yeah, I know, I just said that pretty much - but I had to do Stacy a favor and keep her kiddo for a couple hours and I'm totally happy about being able to do that for her. Plus this gave me another day to kind of test out my "recovery". 
• 0 cigarettes / 1 beer - I spent some time at my mom's tonight and it was really hard not to smoke. I really really wanted to. Instead I just decided to leave a little earlier than I intended. I couldn't be tempted any more. I just kept trying to remember how awful it would make me feel and how yucky I would smell. It kind of works. Sometimes. 
• going to bed in just a few mins... 11pm bedtime
• $4 on lunch

Today I wanted to eat everything... ALL THE THINGS. I tried to stick to fruits and veggies after getting home from work, but still had to sneak some cheese and crackers at my mom's to settle the savage beast that was my belly.

The other thing about today is... I felt fat. When I took a shower earlier this evening and I felt like my belly looked really really flabby whereas before I got sick I felt like it was starting to finally FINALLY tone up a bit. Just another thing to add to my gym motivation.

Btw - I think I'm moving into a "obsessed with weight lifting" phase... so be prepared to read a lot about that in the weeks to come... and perhaps another Challenge... stay tuned.