That's pretty much all there is to say.
I stepped on the scale this morning to find my weight only .4 lbs less than my starting point... I think I need to just NOT weigh myself anymore. Here's the breakdown...
End of 5 Week Challenge:
- Weight: 197.4lbs (.4lbs loss after all is said and done. Fail.)
- Chest: 39" (1 inch loss)
- Waist at bellybutton: 34"(3 inch loss)
- Hips: 45" (1 inch loss - I think I may have measured incorrectly last week)
- Arms (flexing): 13" (no loss)
- Thighs: 26" (1 inch loss)
I think basically what this all boils down to is: I'm one of those people that has to exercise in order to really be able to lose weight and most of this past 5 weeks I have done very little of that. It just makes me want to cry... this time last year I thought for sure I'd be at least SOMEWHAT closer to my eventual goal weight. I thought I'd at least be down to 180 or even 185. I'm a little disgusted with myself.
I think another thing I need to really do is stop eating fast food. Period. Friday or Saturday out at the bar, wanna splurge on some mozzarella sticks or nachos? Sure. Taco Bell every Monday and Wendy's every Friday for lunch? No way. I just need to start taking a packed lunch to work on those days so I can still join my co-workers for lunch just without eating the terrible-for-me food.
Tonight I'm going out for my husband's birthday and I'm going to allow myself to eat and drink whatever I want to avoid breaking down and giving in to my stress and low self-esteem by allowing myself to smoke. I think maybe quitting is more important right now than anything else. That doesn't mean I'm giving up calorie counting for the whole week or anything... and I actually already calculated out what (at the moment) I want to eat and drink tonight and am going to post stats with those totals now.. I'll edit tomorrow if need be.
I really need to sit down and write out some realistic goals for myself and get focused. I think that will help me to stay focused on other things in my life right now too.
Day 7:
- total calories/points: 1,617 / 38 - I've only eaten oatmeal and a little pita pizza today and I'm not feeling especially hungry so my calories so far are pretty much nonexistent which is the only reason my projected calorie count for the day is so low.
- no workout
- NO SMOKING
- going to bed whenever the hubby is done celebrating
- $? - it's his birthday, I'm not putting a cap on what we spend for this evening.
I totally feel your frustration, Jess. Weight loss is STUPID. You can work so hard and not lose anything, and then you eat badly one day or have an off week and you gain a million pounds! Ugh! I hate it.
ReplyDeleteI wish I had more encouraging words, but I'm in a pretty low place with my own weight loss, so it's hard to be encouraging. I guess I would just say that we both need to keep moving forward and somehow we'll get there! Bottom line, we know that if we give up, we're not going to lose weight. So we just have to keep going and hope we figure out what works best for us.