Starting Point

So it's been a few days since I posted about trying to "take a break" from my "be healthy" obsession and self-hate cycle. So far, so good. I have avoided logging calories throughout the day almost completely. While I have gone in at the end of the day and entered stuff in, I've done that mostly because I want my FitBit numbers to reflect correctly (it's all connected). But yesterday I realized that's dumb. It doesn't matter if my calories reflect on my FitBit -- the most important information my FitBit can provide me with right now is my step count, activity levels, and sleep patterns. I don't have to count/track calories/food for that info.

As I said I would the other day, I went ahead and weighed myself and took measurements for a starting point in this experiment about trusting myself to eat right/enough and be active. Here they are:
Weight/Measurements @ 09/05/2013:
Weight: 189 lbs
Chest (across bust): 38"
Waist: 32.5"
Waist @ navel: 34.5"
Hips: 44"
Thighs: 25.5"
Arms: 11.5"

Not as much change as I had feared, and more change in areas I wasn't even concerned about -- I gained inches on my hips and thighs. Although, some of that could be muscle gains in my glutes and quads with all the squats I've been up to this summer.

So, after my post the other day I came across this quote on a site called Impruvism, and I thought it was so appropriate for what I've been going through lately:

"Don’t be afraid to change your goals, and don’t identify yourself with how you exercise, what you eat, or any other single aspect of your life. You’re more than that. Do more of what works and less of what doesn’t."

I came across a lot of things that day, actually, that I just really needed to see and read... things that made me realize these struggles are part of the process and that changing things up until you find the thing or things that work best for you is totally normal and okay and is nothing to beat yourself up over. 

I guess I just haven't found my "thing" quite yet, but I'm getting there.