I've had a very strange week this week. It all started with a migraine on Sunday evening. The second one in a month for me. This is unusual, not because migraines are unusual for me, but because I normally only get 2-4 a year... not 2 in a month. I broke it down to: birth control.
I have been really bad about taking my birth control like I normally would this cycle. My normal routine is that the pill gets popped with my handful of vitamins every morning around 8am (with the exception of Saturdays and/or Sundays, on which I usually remember sometime around 10am). Well, my worst-migraine-I've-ever-had popped up last month after I forgot to take my pill one day until around 7pm... and then went ahead and took my next one at my normal of 8am. HORMONE OVERLOAD. Apparently. So when I started this next pack, my first day back on active pills I neglected to take it until around 11am. Deciding I would not like to go through another migraine, I made the decision to switch my normal time to 11am. Well this was a big fail because I have a life and work and 2 children and 11am and is just too far into a normal day to try to remember to anything at a specific time. So all cycle I've been taking it sometimes at 10am, sometimes noon, sometimes not until 2pm, sometimes actually at 11am... this apparently has made me a little crazy.
I've been highly sensitive for the last week, quick to anger, quick to cry, pissed off at my husband and/or children for no reason whatsoever, bouncing back and forth between feeling pumped and positive and happy to the next moment wanting to punch people in the face. I believe the recent full moon probably has something to do with this as well lol.
Here's the other thing: since my migraine on Sunday night, I've been getting mini-headaches every day this week. I can't think straight, I can't concentrate, I can't remember what I'm doing even when I'm in the middle of something. I realized last night I've been STARVING since Sunday. I ate very little Sunday until after my headache... I've been staying well-within my calorie limit, plus walking every day. Then there was the laser tag and dancing extravaganza Friday night that left me incredibly dehydrated. I don't think I had quite recovered. Even after my veggie burrito bowl lunch at Qdoba yesterday, an hour and a half later I found myself starving again. That is incredibly unusual for me. After a Qdoba lunch I normally don't need anything but a light snack for dinner because it keeps me full and satisfied until well into the evening.
So last night I went to this amazing pizza/beer place with a couple friends for drinks. Because Qdoba had obviously failed my all-of-a-sudden insatiable hunger, I ended up ordering a delicious wood-fired pizza brushed with olive oil (no tomato sauce) topped with whole milk mozzarella (YUM! HUGE difference from part-skim), mushrooms, artichoke hearts, chunks of fresh garlic and prosciutto. It was incredibly delicious and full of calories and fats and everything my body was screaming for. A nearly-3,000 calorie splurge day has never felt so amazing and so right. I didn't feel bad or guilty for one second. This morning I woke up and felt more "normal" than I've felt all week.
Listening to your body and not criticizing your cravings is sometimes the best thing you can do for yourself, in my opinion. I can't even describe how amazing it felt to eat and really enjoy my food with no guilt, no feelings of "I'll have to be extra 'good' tomorrow", not feeling the need to binge on what I ordered but simply eat until I was satisfied and to take the rest home for a second meal the next day, and probably most importantly: not feeling the need to binge on other junky foods just because I had "already messed up" for that day, week, whatever.
Okay, so now this: You know how I've been sort of avoiding exercise like the plague? And how I was supposedly putting together a training/food program for my husband and haven't said anything more about that (talk about feeling guilty...)?
Well, I haven't done anything as far as actually writing down a program for Mike to follow... which I feel terrible about.. and will eventually get to within the next few days because otherwise I fear he will just give up entirely on "being healthy" and think I'm not supportive of him... but as far as exercising: Mike and I have been taking near-daily walks for 20-40 minutes depending on how much time I have, and I feel pretty awesome about it! I know it's not intense exercise or activity by any means.. but it's something. And that is definitely more than what I was doing a month ago. I'll take it. Slowly, but surely, Folks. Slowly, but surely.
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